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The Bitch Finally Speaks

hey everyone. *dodges trash* i know i haven't...been faithful. and i know i haven't done the things i promised *cough update fics cough cough* but i'm about to pull the biggest betrayal of the new year yet. sorry.

i am no longer going to be posting fics here. sorry, if you were hoping that i would. but that doesn't mean i'm stopping on my writing. instead, i'm going to be posting on lj, and i'll definitely give you the heads up when i do.

also, i'm not leaving. no, i must say that i love the friends that i have made on here too much to do that. but, for christmas, i got the camera that i've been hoping to get. so instead, i'm going to be taking pictures. a lot of pictures actually.

i've started a project. actually. maybe you've heard of it? it's called photo 365. and i'm going to be (already am) doing it. and i will be posting my pictures on here.

you see, ever since the great computer grounding of 08 (remember i had to sneak on here for 3 months?) i've been having this huge ass writers block. the last thing i wrote was that little snippet of that Patrick/Jeopardy fic. and i haven't finished that.

so i'm struggling to get back into my grove. but i'm getting there. so far, the only thing i've been posting on lj is aroma therapy. and as soon as i've posted all of that, i'll start posting the sequal, and i'm sure then i will pick up writing as fervently as i did it before.

i'm sorry. personally, i don't think anyone really cares or remembers anymore. but at least i will be bringing the pictures. i want to stay here and catchup with all of my friends again. so thanks for reading ;D

ps. please feel free to comment on my pictures! comment=love and we all need some of that in our lives don't we? see you on the flipside guys.

500 BUZZES! YAY! (and, Andy replied back!)

hey ya'll....um, i know i'm a filthy, stinkin, son of a bitch liar but...i just...

I HAVE WRITERS BLOCK OKAY? I CAN'T WRITE!!!*cries*

i'm TRYING to write fics. but i only have like...a quarter of a chapter done and i don't have much time on my hands! at least, i haven't. but i have about 3 weeks of winter break, so i promise. SWEAR that i will update then. honestly, i will i will i WILL.

anyways, i look over at my sidebar, and realize that i have reached exactly 500 buzzes! thanks for all the love guys! even though i don't really deserve it...

in other news, i was talking to Andy on twitter! lookie here! Andy is FC. i suggested that everyone should sound off on where their FC was. and then he was like "yes, that's a great idea, everybody should do that!" and then, embarassingly, 22 hours later, i replied "sorry i took so long to respond, i had finals and stuff" and then i sent another one cause i didn't have enough room and said "but at least i'll go to sleep with the knowledge that one of my favoritte drummers just replied back to me! night! 5 days till xmas!" and then he replied back "haha, night, take care" and then that's it! i'm buzzing with joy, Andy replied back to me! i've talked to all the members of FOB (in the form of q&a's and twitter now) except for Patrick...hmm, that'll be hard....but i'll make do!

well, i'm a bit sick, so nighty night! if you guys wanna know, or care, i am updating on lj. i'm not posting anything over there that i haven't already posted here. i'm just posting my old fic, Aroma Therapy, and as soon as i update everyone who's reading that fic on lj , i'll devote myself way more to updating the sequal, Love Me Dead. again, i'm so dearly sorry for being a fucker and lying about updating fics. i just didn't think that i would be so busy. but then again, it IS the holidays....

well, only 5 days till Xmas everyone! hope you have a good one!

ps. my mom doesn't know that i know that she got me a camera. i'm really starting to get into photography, so i'll def. be posting a lot of pics from now on....see ya!

and just for old time sake....

HAHAHAHHAHAHA!! :DDDD

Updates (you MUST read this. if you WANT to know what's goin on!!!)

hey everyone *waves gingerly* i know i haven't um...kept up on fics, like...at all..but mostly it's in part to trying to...i guess get myself settled on LJ. i wanted to be able to fluctuate between posting fics on there, and here. so i've started with Aroma Therapy cause i think that's my best fic series to date. and...i'm getting a lot of good responses so...

anyways, i wanted to tell you all something. warning, some self pimping is about to happen...

i started a tumblr. right now, it's on a trial basis, as in, i'll try to gather up readers, but if my attempt fails then i'm giving up tumblr forever and sticking to buzznet and LJ. and FOE of course.

it's, theclandestinehuman.tumblr.com i'd really, REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY like it if ya'll would check it out and you know...comment and read and and tell other peeps about it. it's not a place were i'll be posting fics. it's me, at my rawest. posting things that i'm afraid to say but WILL say, things that you're afraid to say, things that we're ALL afraid to even THINK about. because, i think that's what everyone needs, someone who will say and do things that they're afraid to do. i was inspired by a particularly bold fic i read the other day. i'm not saying anything about it because the author doesn't want to much publicity on it. because she's ashamed of the fic in all it's naughtiness and utter hush-hush (it's bad, really bad. not, written bad, the author is a GREAT writer, i mean bad like...having sex with your mom bad. the most i'll say is that it's a waycest fic, but that doesn't even BEGIN to cover it. it was a bold move, and i really liked it for it's boldness and rashness, but that's all i'm saying about that....)

but anyways, the blog is about views and such. some ranting may occur (okay, maybe...a LOT of ranting may occur) and we can always laugh it off later right?

...right...

but again everyone, PLEASE take a look! i really want this to be something. something that people will read because come on, even the loneliest blogger dreams of someone who reads thier posts (even if they don't comment) and of course, you all know how much i cherish comments....i think it's only fair, seeing as i comment on EVERYTHING i read. which, is a lot. and i always thank people who comment me. so please, i BEG of you, read the blog, just try it out! you might like it! so...yeah...

but anyways, as a penny for your troubles, surprise surprise! little snippet of an epic oneshot i've been working on!

Patrick Jeopardy fic! i'm thinking of expanding this. maybe a mini series...oh Pete, how you inspire me with your FOBrock q&a answers...

oh, the original question in question...

question
pete, are you good at jeopardy? do you ever just play along with the tv?
asked by hotdevil0 on November 30, 2008

answer
nah. patrick is though.
answered by p on December 1, 2008

now, if you go to fobrock to see this question for yourself and read it, you will find out that, gasp! it's NOT THERE?!?!? well, it was posted early in the morning, or night, if you'd prefer, and Pete deleted it after like...an hour. but it was enough time to get our dear friends that we ALL know over at LJ, icecreamhdaches to get a hold of it and post it. sorry Pete, that little secret q&a did not go under OUR radar. and well... *shifty eyes* i don't think Pete deleted it, i think that the super secret FOBmafia came and deleted it because it was to precious. i mean, to find out that the lead singer of one of your favorite bands likes JEOPARDY? of ALL the games? well, that's gold...CANON GOLD!!!!

and from that, i give you a little snippet of what i have written so far of a new little ficlet, it may turn into a bit oneshot, but i'm not sure yet. i have two whole pages done, these are it, it's just a tease. i'll get done with it hopefully by the end of the week. this'll be fun. thank you in part to the_13th_bullet and xmexandxyoux from LJ who requested this. this is for you! tell me if you like it....

Everyone knew that as soon as the clock hit 5pm, all normal communications with Patrick where shut off.

Because you see, 5pm in Chicago, Illinois, was a very special time for the lead singer of the internationally famous band, Fall Out Boy. It was special, because at 5pm sharp, was when Patrickâ�™s favorite game show, Jeopardy, started.

And everyone, everyone who knew Patrick, knew that once 5pm rolled around, it was Jeopardy time, and Jeopardy time, was fucking sacred.

So when Pete, Pete knowing Patrick better than Patrickâ�™s own mother, came to Patrickâ�™s house at 5pm to talk to Patrick about lyrics for the upcoming album, he knew, knew what he was getting into.

There was only one other time when someone interrupted Patrickâ�™s Jeopardy time, and that person got punched because they had actually dared to turn off the television just as Alex Trebeck was about to announce whether Sally Ride was the first woman astronaut in space, or if Patrick was wrong, which, he never was. And also, that person never interrupted Patrickâ�™s Jeopardy time again. In fact, that person was never seen again after that, that person didnâ�™t even exist as far as Patrick is concerned.

But really, watching Patrick watch Jeopardy was like watching two bears having sex. Youâ�™ve never seen anything like it. The way Patrick just spouted off answers seconds after the question is even being done asked is astonishing. And the only other time Pete had seen something like that was when he was watching The Bucket List, but Morgan Freeman was just acting and of course his answers where just memorized lines and that didnâ�™t count. But this, this was real. And it wasâ�¦unnatural to say the least.

Pete let himself in using a copy of the house key that Patrick had given him for those nights where he just had to get away from Ashlee and her pregnant self for the moment. Mostly because no one had ever told him that pregnant women are the equivalent to angry raccoons when on one of their mood swings.

But the baby was here, and, while he wanted to be spending time with his new bright star, he really needed to consult Patrick about some lyrics for b-sides and he reasoned that Patrick would understand. I mean, their new album was about to drop in less than two weeks and this wasnâ�™t exactly a matter that could wait. So with his Wentzian logic, Pete reasoned himself into thinking that this was the perfect time to drop in on Patrick and discuss lyrics.

As Pete shut the door and hung his coat in the foyer, he could hear the doo dee doo doo doo dee do da theme that played while the contestants wrote down their answers. After a couple seconds there was the buzzing signifying that a contestant had an answer, which was Brunei. But this was shortly followed by the sound signifying a wrong answer, Penny barking, and Patrick hissing a â�œyesâ� and saying the right answer (which was Oman, apparently) in time with Alex Trebeck.

Pete gingerly walked down the main hall, and slowly peeked into the living room. Patrick was sitting there, curled up on the couch with Penny on his lap.

Pete hesitantly stood in the entrance of the living room. Patrick was completely engulfed in the show, watching it from his big, HD plasma screen (which, though he would never admit it, he bought just for the purpose of watching Jeopardy).

Pete stood there for a minute or two, though it seemed like forever, and then the commercial break came on, at which Patrick looked up at Pete.

â�œHey â�˜Trickâ� Pete gingerly greeted; Penny jumped down from Patrickâ�™s lap and came bounding to Pete.

â�œHey Peteâ� Patrick replied, a questioning look in his eyes. â�œWhat are you doing here?â�

Pete picked up Penny from the floor and lightly scratched her ears. â�œUhâ�¦I just wanted to come and talk lyrics for a bitâ�¦you mind?â� he asked timidly as he set Penny down and strolled to the couch.

â�œYeah, we can talkâ�¦.after Jeopardyâ�™s doneâ� he said just as the commercial break came back on.

Any other time, this would have been fine. Jeopardy only lasted an hour, and Pete could be patient considering the circumstances. But this wasnâ�™t any other time, and he had a baby and wife at home waiting to receive mounds and mounds of love and affection and he didnâ�™t want to spend any more time away from them than needed. So, no, this would not work.

â�œJanet Renoâ� Patrick answered to a question that Pete did not hear. Seconds later, Kyle, one of the contestants, answered the same. And Patrick did a small fist pump in the air....

so tell me if you like! also, my other idea was that as a birthday present, Pete got Patrick a contestant Spot on Jeopardy, and his reaction. if anyone wants to write that, go ahead! i'd read it. but please credit me as the person who originally thought of it. thanks you! :D

The story of the girl who couldn't see Twilight has a happy ending! :D

I'M GOING TO GO SEE TWILIGHT TODAY AT 1PM. I'M SO EXCITED! FINALLY, MY MOMMY SAID YES AFTER AN EXCRUTIATING WEEK OF ANTICIPATION. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M SO LATE!!!

okay, caps off

but i'm going! today! i know i know i'm really REALLY late, and most of you are probably going for your like, 5th viewing, but i'm going at 1 with my awesome uncle and i'm going to LOVE IT.

i was sooooo tempted to watch it online at ninjavideo.net, and i watched like...the first 4 minutes of it before i was like "NO, i'm going to WAIT. and i'm going to shut this off NOW" and so, here is the day. *sigh* i feel so .... left out being so late to watch it, but then again i'm just happy to be able to GO. SOOOO HAPPEHHHH! :D

now...the only thing that could make this end of the year more perfect is getting a golden ticket....probably not, but who knows?

oh, and i WAS going to go see Cobra Starship tomorrow, but my dad decided to be a meenie and say the he doesn't feel like driving to Allentown, which is not even that FAR AWAY, like, an HOUR at the most. you know how much that SUCKS.

...ah well, maybe next time, or maybe if i get lucky and TAI comes to lancaster again...*sigh* i'm hoping that when FOB starts a new tour i may be able to go see them. i really want them to be my first concert. man, i'm 15 and never have gone to a concert. thanks mom and dad. you're awesome

bye! :D

oh, and i just HAD to share this

the words are covering it, but it's funny cause she's just standing there being interviewed while this random dude is just slaughtering turkey's behind her. lol, Sarah Palin you're so oblivious. you can go away now, no one likes you. especially me. now go, shoo *does sweeping motion*

BARACK OBAMA FTW!!! RAHHH!!!! :D (oh, that's right, he DID WIN. WHUT! YEAH, THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT! :P)

The story of the girl who couldn't go see Twilight...

This girls' name was Enya, and Enya, is me.

le *sigh* i'm sick and tired of hearing about a movie that i want to see SO badly, that i cry everytime i think about what went down in the past few days...

so...let me start from the beginning..

*Thursday*

so i get home, pretty stoked up since my friends and i just finished finalizing our plans to go see Twilight on Sat. night. i eat dinner and my mom doesn't get home half an hour until after i do.

i get on the comp. as usual, and my mom gets home, looking slightly pissed at something. after she eats, she come up to me and tells me she needs to talk about something with me. i ask what and she tells me later, when she's laid down for a bit and relaxed...

so later comes by, and my mom sits me down in our mini library, and asks me which movie i was planning to go see on sat. i nervously told her , Twilight, and she nodded to herself.

next thing you know, she looks at me with an angry look and says, "so how long until you think i would find out?" and my face is blank at this point (as most of you know, my mom is a very christian, and doesn't like me reading/watching/having anything to do with "devil" things. like wizardry and vampires and stuff like that...) and i ask her what she's talking about. at this point, i'm pretty nervous and have this feeling like my night is about to go to shit. and after a couple minutes of "mom, i still don't know what you're talking about" she tells me that she saw the trailer for Twilight on tv, and that she knows it's about vampires.

i freak the fuck out, not on the outside, but inside. because this is the worst thing that could happen to me. so then, we have an about 2 and half hour discussion with me crying and begging her not to make me throw away the books (i had gotten eclipse for my birthday! and no way was i throwing them out!) and was already making plans in my head to hide the books in a place she would never find them. but in the discussion, i told her how i'm not retarded and that, no matter how she insists that books like that poison minds, i told HER that i KNOW better than that. how i'm not one of those stupid fangirls out there who are just PRAYING for Edward to bite them. i told her how i read books for the richness of them. how i like Meyer's writing because i like the way she tells a story, and the fact that vampires have anything to do with it is not part of as to why i'm DRAWN to the books. and in the end, she tells me, "fine, you can keep the books, but from now on, i want you to be COMPLETELY honest about what you're reading, not just tell me the half truth" and what she meant by that is the fact that i had told her what Twilight was about before, but in the most basic, and stripped down terms. i.e, "twilight is about a girl who goes to this high school, and she meets this guy who is dangerous, and he tells her he's dangerous but the girl doesn't listen to him, and falls in love with him" which, in the barest of terms IS what Twilight is about...just...without the mention of vampires...

and so, i'm rejoicing cause my mom let me keep the books and then, she drops the bomb on me. she says "you can keep the books, but you're not allowed to go see the movie with your friends" and that, THAT is where my night goes to shit

*Friday*

so friday, i spend the whole day pissed off at the fact that i can't go see Twilight, i begrudgenly tell all my friends the cancellation of my plans, and how they'll just have to go see it without me. in truth, the disappointment just RUINED my whole day, and i just had a REALLY bad day in general because of it. first, i'm pissed off becasue of that, and i'm so mad that in my first class, geometry, i snap at my teacher because she's accusing me of not getting done i paper that i didn't even GET, and i'm mad because the damn person NEXT to me, just happened to be talking to damn MUCH to pass along the paper to ME. so i just got cheated out of 30 points. which, i really needed cause my grade is SHIT in that class (an 85, which, for some stupid reason, is the cut off for B's. to get an A you have to have a 93 and above. damn stupid ass shit SCHOOL) and then, in Health class, i get this bad ass grade on some damn stupid test i had on drugs and what not (which, i don't CARE about! i'm not doing drugs, and i don't plan to do them later! so stop TEACHING ME ABOUT IT)

and then, in last period, i'm talking with my friends, and they suggest, "why don't you try trading one punishment for another?" and i turn that idea around in my head until i get home

so i get home, and it's later, and i approach my mom. i tell her that i'd be willing to give up my computer for however long she sees fit for me "lying" to her, if she let's me go see the movie. she stubbornly says no, and that i better stop bothering her about it...

early on, i had asked my dad if he would help me budge my mom on me seeing the movie. my dad is no as uptight as my mom, and i knew that he sort of thought it was a bit extreme not to let me read books just because they had supernatural things in them. i mean, it's not like i'm reading a fuckin wican worship book for goodness sakes, it's just a BOOK. GOSH. and then, i keep asking my dad when he'll talk to my mom about it...which, never happens...

*Saturday*

i go to church (which was long assed and BORING, as always. ugh, the preacher dude was all old and i didn't even know what the hell he was SAYING. i cought the gist of it, and it wasn't anything i didn't learn before anyways so..) and i'm just like, pissed off and hopeful at the same time, cause, i'm hoping by some miracle my dad will convince my mom and i would go and have one of the better weekend of my year so far that night.

...it doesn't happen. instead, i'm stuck at home, sorrounded by all these people who my parent's are having over for a church meeting. makes me sick to my stomach. and i spend the whole night sulking and crying and alternating between punching my bed and listening to some angry, loud, obnoxoius music to let off some steam...

*Sunday*

i get a text message from my awesome uncle, Alex, from NYC, asking me if i'd seen Twilight yet, i send him one back saying no, and he sends another saying that he'll take me when he comes home for thanksgiving.

i call him, and explain the whole situation with my mom. well, actually, i leave him a voice mail, and i tell my dad about the message. and he just looks at me and tells me "good luck with telling your mom that" and that's that...

that same night, i approach my mom again, telling her about the message Alex sent me, and i tell her that i'd served my punishment, that i had missed to go to the movies with my friends and that i had suffered long enough. she nods to herself and asks me if i know why i was punished, and i tell her it was because i lied to her. she then asks me what am i going to do next time, and i say that i'll tell you the whole truth about a book. and then she says that she'll consider letting me go with my uncle...

*Monday*

my uncle calls me back, and he tells me how he got my voicemail, and understands (my uncle is gay, and has suffered the wrath of my mom's christian beliefs. but they're cool, and i LOVE my uncle, he's the best! :D love you tio! :DDD) and that he'll try his best to budge my mom on it, and that no worries we'll work it out. he's so confident, (and i am too, because he's budged my mom on going to see certain movies before...) that we make plans to go see it Friday, during the day since i have off from wednesday till next monday. and he says cool and that's that.

so, today is monday, and i'm getting high on hope and flying like planes, hoping hoping HOPING to GOD that i get to go see Twilight. because i want to see it so BAD. i mean, mostly, what pisses me off about it is that i have been PLANNING, WAITING to see this movie for almost a YEAR now, and to have my plans RUINED. just DAYS before seeing it, is like, SHIT. it's RIDICULIOUS. and i'd rather have been busted AFTER seeing the movie, cause then it would of been WORTH it. and man, do i WANT TO SEE IT.

so, cross your fingers for me. hopefully i too will soon be talking about the awesomeness or potential not awesomeness of the Twilight movie. i heard the other day that they're officially going to start working on New Moon now, and i hope to god that i get to go see that as well when it comes out...

...sigh, sorry for the length of that, i just needed to type it all out :D

oh, and fics...i'm typing them as i speak. watch out for em! oh, and please, to whoever is reading this, please pimp my fics out to people. i'm afraid that i've lost to many readers after not updating for so long. so please, put in a good word for me if you have some :D. thanks.

-Enya

Joe answered MY question! :DDDD (and some updates)

so...if you live under a rock, or just don't care, you might of not seen that Joe posted a journal a day ago stating that he was bored and that he would like to answer some questions. i inputed about..oh...6 questions (what can i say, it's once in a lifetime chance! well..not really but STILL) and he answered one of them!

here it is...

why do atm's have braile? i mean, if you are blind, you can't see the screen so you wouldn't know what button to press in the first place. so what's the point in that???

So the blind can take out money. I'm sure the braille gives enough info for someone to remove funds from their checking/savings account. That's why the braille is there, because in fact, people who are blind can't see the screen. Plus there is an audio option to accompany the braille, so the blind know exactly what's going on. Seems like there's a point to me!

but i just thought i should share that with anyone! so far, Pete has answered to of my questions and now Joe has answered one of mine! i'm soooo special trippin right now!!!! :DDDD

as far as updates go though, my computer charger has indeed been ordered, and according to my dad he says it should come either tomorrow, or on tuesday. maybe wednesday. let's hope for the first one. and i did promise you that if i didn't get my charger this week, i would bring back a fic for you. or take requests. i haven't written some stuff in a while. but i don't think i'm to rusty at it. if you guys want me to write any one shots, or like i was telling barb (heartbroken4stumph) i was thinking of writing maybe a True Blood fic or an TB bandom crossover. so if anyone is interested in that, i'll be more than willing to do it. you really don't know how guilty i feel for not updating. and i hope i haven't lost most of my readers. i feel so bad. i hope that once i do start writing fics again my people will come back, at least, the ones that left...or maybe no one left at alll...hmm...

and, if you like, read my stuff, but you're one of those people who don't comment a lot on things. please DO! comments=love, and when i get love i feel nice and special inside and i comment everything i read! so SHOW the love people! cause i won't know it's there unless you do!

really hope you guys are still there. you know i'm not usually the one to take so long to update things. but this..this is just ridiculious.

...but anyways, hopefully, comp. back soon. in the off time i've had i've just been reading a lot of fics and picking up on writing tips. because i want my writing to be the best as possible. i've read some baddd fics (and i mean BAD. as in, horribly written) that make me cringe, (not naming any names, if it makes you feel better, it's no one on here...or on LJ...other sites though...ugh) and i've read some really GOOD fics. stuff that is just fantastic and you can just about TASTE the emotions of the characters. and i've learned a lot. so i'm hoping that that shows when i pick up writing again. i can't wait to start updating Love Me Dead. and i think i might start posting it on lj, which, i started doing, but i think people got confused that i mean Bella from Twilight paired with Patrick, which i admit is not a very attractive pairing...to me at least...maybe if i just clear that up....

peace out homes! but oh! pictures of the day yo!

credit: users on punditkitchen.com some pretty funny political LOL pics on there :D

True Blood=LOVE

okay, so i just watched all of the episodes of True Blood up to last night's episode in one weekend...

STEPHEN MOYER=SEXIIINEESSSS. OH MY GOD BILLLLLL!!!! I LOVEEEEE YOUUUUU

before, i was all about Heroes, but i have a new reason to watch tv now...i don't actually have HBO (yet, wroking on it with dad...) but i watched all the episodes online, the full ones. and it WAS EPIC!!!! I LOVEEEE THIS SHOOWWWWW!!!!

okay, so i heard about True Blood like...a month ago. actually, it was when i was in NYC and saw this huge bill board in times square with the picture of the super red lips and the blood? and i was like...hmm, gonna look that up...

and i did, i went to hbo.com. but they only had synopsis of the episodes. it wasn't until this weekend when i saw another advertisement for it that i decided to start hunting for a site that could give me the full episodes...in good quality...

ninjavideo.net you saved my life :D

i even got to watch episode ten aired last night i believe? sundays at 9 pm right? now every week i'm going to log onto that site and watch it cause i CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT OMG BILL ARE YOU GOING TO TURN THE GIRL?

anyone know what i'm talking about? if you don't, SERIOUSLY, GET A LIFE AND GO WATCH TRUE BLOOD.

http://ninjavideo.net/cat/796 that's all the episodes up to the most recent one from last night. this site is very reliable. and unlike other sites i found ALL of their links work. and the vids are really good quality...of course, this is only recommended if you don't already have HBO. the episodes air every sunday and 9pm. but of course you have to get caught up so you can go that site to do that...

and, yeah, i'm going to say it. don't hit me. you'll understand if you just WATCH the shows!

BILL is SEXIER, than vamp!Pete and Edward...COMBINED.

because REAL vampires DON'T SPARKLE. i have SEEN THE SEXINESS PEOPLE AND I HAVE BEEN CONVERTED!!!! watch True Blood, and have a Billgasm like i did! :D

seriously, best fucking show i have seen in a LONG time. i BARELY watch tv, but if i HAD hbo, you damn well would be sure i would watch this every week! and hbo has some really good shows too anyways!

oh, but be warned. there is some very graphic sex involved (yeah, trust me, Bill, naked..you will NOT regret) and the only thing i don't like about that fact is that the one character, Jason, yeah, he gets a little bite TOO much. or more like, just TOO much. more than i'd like to see. but Jason is pretty sexy to. just NOT AS SEXY AS BILLLLLLL!!!!

oh, and if you're confused. Stephen Moyer is the actor for Bill, that's why i used both names. and OH MY GOD I"M DYING FROM A SEXINESS OVERLOAD!! BILL! BILL MOTHER FUCKING COMPTON I LOVE YOU AND YOUR FANGS!!!!

and i'm SO in love with this. i've even thinked about writing a true blood bandom crossover. trust me, just LOOK UP, a picture of Bill from True Blood and you will see that if i ever write Bill/vamp!Pete, it would be the hottest thing ever...

i wonder if i'm the only one who's thought of this...i'm about to go to livejournal and ask someone if there are any True Blood fics so far...hmm...i think i'll go now...

picture(s) of the day!! (including some Bill!)

Here's Stephen Moyer as Bill Compton in True Blood

and this is regular Stephen Moyer. i love this show so much i'm actually going back and watching some parts again! seriously, sexiness OVERLOAD over here!

*goes off to stare at Bill*

EDIT: on the site, you have to click the link that says "launch ninjavideo helper beta" and then click on "run" when a dialogue box opens. cause that's the only way that it'll let you buffer the vids. and you have to keep the box that come open and says "online" open in order for the site to work. i hope no one has dial up cause i doubt it would even work on there...have fun! hope you love it as much as i do! :D

I'm So Dearly Sorry (herpastregrets)

really. i am. you don't know how desperate i am to write. it's to the point where i can't even focus on AAS congruence postulate in geometry. not that no one cares what that is. including me...

*sigh* come ON. just WORK ya damn piece of machinery that is oh so precious to me!! :(

didya see/hear, Andy has a blog now. part of his clothing line. it's fuckcity.com. i love when Andy writes, cause he's always so passionate about it. i'd love to hang with Pete, to listen to music with Patrick, and to play guitar hero with Joe, but i'd the most, i would LOVE LOVE LOVEEE to sit down with Andy and talk. i mean seriously. i have some serious questions for him. like just exactly he is an anarchist. and also, if the world must end. if society MUST come down. and be built up again or not even that, but just remain without any leardership. don't you think that leadership/government/SOME type of leadership is sort of inevitable in society? i personally believe that leadership is inevitable. i think it's literally impossible to live for a very long time and not look up to SOMEONE to SOMETHING for leadership or advice. like parents, or community leaders. some type of leadership or government is impossible NOT to have i think. cause even is some of us crave chaos and disorganization and just pure freedom from any form of leadership, i don't think we can survive like that for long....

but yeah, anyway *yawn* tired. going to go read fic instead of write it. so sorry again. really, i am :(

Thinking of...(not you, that's for sure! psyche lol;D)

i'm thinking of making an au fic off of the Snakes On A Plane vid, by cobra? cause i think that'd be pretty cool. yeah...what do you think???

computer will be up by....the end of next week. PROMISE. if it's NOT. then i swear i'll bring back a fic for you. or write some people oneshots or something....serious

*yawn* going to sleep. tomorrow is dress up for halloween tomorrow. since i'm not allowed to (que in overly christian mom) i'll just get away with it by wearing my "Team Edward" shirt that i got for my b-day.

oh, did i tell you? my bestest best friend Alissa, got me a "Team Edward" shirt from hot topic for my b-day. it OWNS your face. it's so awesome! i'll wear it tomorrow. pics as soon as i can find that damn memory card....

RAHHH I JUST ORDERED DEUX!!!!!!

I'M SO HAPPEH right now! i just got finished ordering FAD's preorder Deux package! with my b-day money! i have more than enough money for Trois, but my mom said it's not a good idea to enter check numbers and social security online, so i had to use my 50 dollar mastercard. but it's okay, the only reason i would of wanted Trois is because of the signed vinyl and the teddy bear usb (loaded with what i've heard to be called "release the bears") so if anyone gets Trois, they should TOTALLY share that cause I wanna see release the bears (does this mean the return of bedussey? i HOPE so!)

anyways, i still can't use my touch...at least, not fully. why? because my comp. is still not working, and that also means that i STILL can't update fics. and i am SOOOOO sorry for that. i want to update Love Me Dead so much, and finish typing up my hand written oneshots and start my LAST vamp fic. yes, you heard me write, I, a writer of ONLY vamp fics, am about to do my last one...for a while at least...and i've come up for some pretty good ideas for some au's, and some bandom fics too. just some stuff based off things like the AP.net interview Patrick did recently and stuff. so yeah...

i'm still SOOOO buzzed from the fact that second ago i ordered Deux. do you think i could get the golden ticket? do you know how i would die if i did? i don't know though, i never usually win stuff like that. but who knows, i'll pray for it, that's for sure

"God, please let me get the golden ticket in the preorder of FAD that i made...amen"

lol :DDDD

anyways, not only am i buzzed from that, but i'm buzzed from playing a round of guitar hero. i'm so excited to finally have the game. but the session was cut short cause, of course, my little sister had to come and bug me. i let her play TWO songs (which she didn't even finish cause like...she hit a total of 3 notes) and then when i took my guitar back, she started crying to my dad saying that i didn't let her play a full two songs and i argued that that WASN'T my fault because the GAME kicks you out when you don't do well enough. and then she kept crying and complaining until my dad got really mad and yelled at me and told me to turn the game off immediatly. and how to unplug my ps2 until i learn not to be so selfish...

i'm NOT being selfish though! i just got the damn thing on sunday and already my little sis wants to take away from me! as always! she has her own damn DS, why can't she play that? whenever she gets a new game for HER DS, i don't go to her and bother her until she lets me play it, i don't even ask her to play it. fuck the golden rule, it's not like anyone follows it! cause my sister NEVER treats me like i treat HER. and i don't do ANYTHING to her. it's so fucking unFAIR.

*deep breath* but whatever, i'm going to stay optimistic cause guess what ELSE...

i'm going to see someone tomorrow...and it's...

it's...

OBAMA!

OROIG(U*(WB*)@RUB*U@R OBAMA!!! I"M GOING TO AN OBAMA RALLY!!! AND NOT ONLY THAT! BUT BILL FUCKING CLINTON IS GONNA BE THERE!!!!! (*@($)*&(#&(*&@$#&(@&$#*&!)#(*&kedhgkhvruighbui@hu! BILL CLINTON MOTHER FUCKER! I'M GONNA MEET HIM! YEAH!!!!

*phew* so excited. well, have to go, almost 10 pm and i haven't gotten a good night sleep since sat. night. the night of my party. pictures soon, we still haven't gotten them back from the photographer.

i ordered deux! *sings*

:DDDD

ooh, picture of the day, a couple actually...

ROTFLOL!!!!

it says "Up To 15 Minutes" on the bottom. lol :D

last one...

Me thinks that a little person could maybe like..slip or something...but i'm just paranoid :D

see ya'll! comp. might, MIGHT, be up by end of the week, or the beginning of next week, i can't stand this anymore. and i REALLY want to start writing!